Lord Help me
by, Jun 23, 2009 at 11:00 PM (701 Views)
He's a nice man, really he is! Well educated, cultured, domesticated... he wants to cook me dinner tonight, he wants to go to church with me.. he wants to father my sons... so why am I not rushing for it?
When you're prepositioned every day of life by the opposite sex, you get a little spoilt... yes, I am a little spoilt. However, when God knocks on your door and says it's time to get married, then you get a little expectant and I am expectant!
It's the age thing... 11 years older than me... even Soji, my brother and first father was just 8 years older. I had made a list of my desires and I really didn't want to marry someone more than 9 years older than me... So is two years more really that big a deal?
My December guy turned out to be 15 years older than me... I was a little crushed but I eventually got over it, then another issue surfaced and we had to end it ... while I was getting over that, this man shows up and I wasn't going to think about it, really, in fact, I went back to online dating and had a few prospects, then I was distracted by a Nigerian for about two weeks, now this man is back, it's reminding me of the hare and tortoise story, while the hare slept, the tortoise won the race...
Back to the bible I go, back to the One Who created me and truly knows me, back to the everlasting arms of Elohim, I'm running into the name of Adonai, and I am, and shall be safe!